leaveten's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- alvin and the chipmunks me, anna, alex, and katherine. we lived across the street from eachother, their dad was armenian like our mom so somehow that led to us being introduced. we were both half of something, there was some sort of common ground i guess. today it all goes back to when we moved out. we stopped seeing eachother every weekend, many weekdays. for a while we just faded away, never completely. katherine was most interdependent on us. she called, e-mailed, myspaced, text messaged, every chance she got. slowly she made new friends and that came to its end. as kids we were all eachother had. the only escape from our seemingly "perfect" worlds we tried our best to keep secret. who knew that back at our house i was being abused, hit with cloths hangers for riding my bike in our driveway, i had my weird schizophrenic way of escaping on my own, i lied about it. back at their house their parents struggled for divorce, that was a story alex knew most about. their dad being gay, it wasn't even a concept i understood at the time. i grew up not knowing what gay was, what race was, i seriously didn't know what race was. i thought everyone was the same thing. i don't know how to explain it but i just didn't know. it seems impossible not to, but i guess it isn't. maybe thats why i'm so liberal minded now, because i never knew, i never had any idea put into my head as to what society was, what's right or what's "normal". after seeing alex the other day, and discovering what i have about my sister (the 13 year old sex fanatic pot head), i wanted to write about how everything used to be fine and how things got so fucked up without us knowing as we grew up. now i realize that isn't true. things were always fucked up in a way. i wonder if me, anna, katherine, and alex just 8:05 pm - 12-17-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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